They FUCKIN DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!

They dont know what i have been through...and what i am going through.....and they don't care....hahahaha.....someone said it right....knowledge is bliss....but i hope it would't be just me then....i hope it would be all of us then....because then the world would be a better place to live in....i have been gifted with knowledge and the hunger for more.....i hope all of us would be gifted with that...in the near future....because it's what makes people wish they hadn't had that....this is what I feel....!!!

They also don't know what i was going to do.....i know that's with me....no one would know what i was going to do untill i would have done it....but then i would have reverted the alternate future....and then they would have commented on what could have happened.....which would then, again result in my sadness....caused by other people....something what i would have thought would have led me to a better future...because the original thing was not going to be that good for me....according to me....they just add their comments to whatever happens to my life and think they are done...they dont know it hurts to hear them...but again....its my life to decide what i have to do to it.....i cannot lead a good life until i live my life in secluded from the human community.....

Don't know what i am goin to do....don't know what will happen next....and people think its all my fault....what in the name of god am i gonna do....how will i live this life i don't know.....because in the end i am a human and i have to live with this community with their faults....i cannot be a misanthrope....i don't have the courage to be one.....

The End...

The End.
The End of War.
The End of Hatred.
The End of Jealousy.
But Then
The End of Peace.
The End of Harmony.
The End of Happiness.
The End of Love.
The End of a Life...........????
Does it have to be?
Is it justified?
The world is dynamic............
and everything ever-changing....
and ever-evolving...............
Everything that starts
has to end......
and sittin here i just cant pretend.....
that the love tht once grew in my heart,
for a lady so full of beauty,
whose love be greater than that of Hera,
whose divinity beyond compare,
whose innocence i thot wuld never end,
would never end.
or rather be forcefully ended...
by none but her whose heart had not yet mended......
the things tht she suffered from nd styl does suffer
i could only imagine.....
In search for true love she set out.....
knowing that she walks on a road....
where thorns guard the roses......
more heavily than trojans did troy...
and tricks nd treachery hv corrupted
tht sacred path of hapiness and joy.......
on search did she embark.......
nd made her soft heart stark......
made darkness her frnd for lyf...
tho she did keep a hope alive....
w8in for her personal jesus ......
loving all of them in purest way......
shattered her dreams were....her heart did sway...
didn't she want it all to end......
like days and plays and fashions nd trends......
My love for her grew even more.....
wht clicked my mind i'm styl not sure......
her protection became the reason....
to life my true lyf tht now did start......
only to end nd tear me apart........
the end of her sadism is accpted and hapened wht shuld......
but ends are also faced by the good.......
My story ended in heaps of misery..........
lies wht is a grave covered with ashes........

and now.......the end of another year........why does it all have to end????

My Death....????.........hmmm...... MY DEATH....!!!

I'm fine, but I can't take this anymore.
I watch the blood drip, when I want it to pour.
Nobody tried to help me through this.
They just told me not to do this.
I'm dying fast, my life is leaving.
I grow increasingly colder.
But you'll continue to get older.
My next breath may be my final.
No one will greet me on arrival.
I'll miss you when I'm gone.
Will you think of me even when you move on?
Where do I go from here?
Leaving you's been my only fear.
Will I cross your mind after my final breath?
Will you think of me after my blessed death?

Weed, my favourite drug.....

Weed
I love the drug
Relief, Relaxation and calming mind's upraor
Yeah, this is what i smoke it for..........

Weed
I roll the Joint
You get to know your innermost feelings
You get to confront your deepest inklings

Weed
I light the spliff
The smoke enters me as my face reshapes
A gasp, a sudden laughter escapes

Weed
I take another puff
My head spins a little bit
This time, my nose, the smoke, emits

Weed
I draw in more smoke
The marijuana keeps on burning
The glow, it keeps on urging.............

Weed
I close my eyes
The room gets phantasmagoric or so i think
It remains the same, no matter how much i blink

Weed
I am looking as it ends
An impulse to take in more smoke arises
A challenge to walk, is what my body faces

Weed
I laugh and laugh and laugh
I walk out from my room into the open
feels like a dead man, walking away from his coffin

.......this aint all.....its just started....w8 for wht actually happens when u take it.